Fossils or Fingerprints?

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

When I checked into the Salt Lake City hotel as our 8-state, 3745 mile road trip came to an end, the young woman said, “Wow, that sounds like an amazing time.  Was this like, a ‘bucket list’ item for you, or what?”

My first thought was, “Hey, kid, how old do I look to you, anyway? Do I LOOK like I’m close to needing to check items off my bucket list?”

But upon reflection, I realized that she was right.  There was a lot about this trip that was “bucket-list-able”.  And I’ve been thinking about the fact that I’ve buried a lot of friends who are younger than I am, and about my own sense of accomplishment at having to made it to age 59 after my mother’s death at age 58.  We mustn’t take these things for granted, friends.

Our trip began and ended in Salt Lake City, Utah (about 8 o’clock on this map). Proceeding as indicated, we visited portions of Idaho, Wyoming, Montana, North Dakota, South Dakota, Wyoming (again), South Dakota (again), Nebraska, Wyoming (again), Colorado, and Utah. Amazing!

Having prefaced this entry with the above, it’s not a little ironic that the last real “stop” on our great adventure was the Dinosaur National Monument, which spans areas in both Colorado and Utah.  We spent the night at a campground on the Green River just a mile or two away from where Andrew Carnegie’s chief fossil collector, Earl Douglass, unearthed an incredible trove of bones belonging to such amazing creatures as the Apatosaurus that is still on display in the Carnegie Museum in Pittsburgh’s Oakland neighborhood.  Between 1909 and 1924, he shipped more than 700,000 tons of bones and other materials back to Pittsburgh until finally, the museum decided that it had all of the Jurassic bones that it needed.

At the Dinosaur National Monument’s Quarry Exhibit.

Here’s the crazy thing: there are still more of them there – just sitting in the ground.  I mean, it’s crazy – walking down the path and seeing a giant bone protruding from the dirt.  Touch it.  Climb on it. We have more…  In fact, the Quarry Exhibit Hall is built right into the side of a hill, and visitors can see, exposed in the dirt, more than 1500 fossils. Walking along the trails of the Monument, we saw not only dinosaur bones, but fossils of other creatures including clams and some prehistoric dolphin-like fish.

The Quarry Exhibit Hall, built into the canyon itself.

Scientists have some theories about why there is such an immense quantity of bones at this particular site.  There were wetlands here at one time, and the thought is that during a time of drought, a large number of these creatures gathered looking for water.  Then an unexpected flood came and many dinosaurs perished at once.  Their bodies were swept to a certain location along the floodplain where they were covered with silt and sand and the process of fossilization began on this “logjam” of dinosaur bones.

The inside of the Exhibit Center contains a rock face displaying hundreds and hundreds of fossils.

You can say it: this is just a couple of old fossils in Utah.

Obviously, the easiest answer to the question “why are there so many bones here?” is this: “because so many animals died here.”  While the dinosaurs obviously didn’t vote for or decide to do this, they got overwhelmed by a flood or stuck in the mud and that was it.  They became fossils.

A dinosaur bone that we noticed on the trail in the Monument.

We knew we’d be seeing bones on this visit, but we were delighted to see something else – something even cooler, to my mind: a vast treasure trove of petroglyphs: etchings on the rock walls of these canyons that have been here for hundreds and probably thousands of years.  As we wandered through the park, we saw dozens of these markings – lizards, dancers, hunters, necklaces, and more.  Many of the sandstone faces of these cliffs are a darker hue on the outside – it’s called “sandstone varnish” – the wind and elements have apparently scorched them a deeper shade.  At some point between 200 AD and 1300 AD a group known as the Fremont People lived in this area.  Using sharpened rocks, they chiseled away at this varnish and left petroglyphs (carvings) and pictographs (paintings) on the walls.  While they are of great beauty and interest in and of themselves, what fascinates me even more is the fact that some of these pieces of art must have taken months or even years to complete.  Which means that someone in that community had the luxury of some free time – that not every second of every day was devoted to the same old grind of hunting and gathering, hunting and gathering.  This also tells me that those who left this art behind were doing more than simply waiting to become fossils themselves – they were leaving fingerprints all over this desert in the hopes that their peers and their children and grandchildren would find the land a little more hospitable, a little more welcoming, and a little more beautiful.

How many different images can you see in this single photo?


Many scientists believe that the dinosaurs’ closest living relatives are birds – like this Lark Sparrow that greeted me in the morning.

Fortunately, this is not a dinosaur.

This formation has been named “Turtle Rock” Can you see it?

A panoramic shot of the Green River. our campground is front and center.

So here’s the deal, beloved, as I conclude this part of the sabbatical.  Each of us, sooner or later, has the opportunity to become a fossil. One day, the folks will stand around me in a circle, throw dirt on my face, and then go back to church and eat some cheesy potatoes and ham.  There’s nothing I can do about that – I’m no better off than those bones in the Carnegie Museum in terms of my earthly mortality.

But I can choose to use the time I’ve been given to leave my fingerprints in places that will, I hope and pray, lead to beauty and joy and reflection; I can work to shape the environment so that my child and grandchildren will have more keenly developed senses of awe and wonder because I’ve walked these paths; I can be grateful for those moments of leisure and reflection that I’ve enjoyed.  This is the difference between fossils and fingerprints: a fossil says, essentially, “Well, I made it this far, and then I died.”  Fingerprints say, “While I was here, I did this.  And then I went on to somewhere else, and did something else.”

I am trying to be grateful, and I am trying to remember that I am still on my way.  And I challenge you to be the same.  Think about your own “bucket list” – what is something you can do todaythat will allow you to resist the rush towards fossilization and give you the chance to shape someone’s world with hope or beauty or joy?  Do it.

Since I’m on Sabbatical, and I’ve been thinking and reflecting in a different way, I’m remembering poetry that has shaped me.  One work that has shaped me for several decades – and in fact has been clipped and rides inside my Bible everywhere I go – is by Scott Cairns.  Listen, and remember:


The thing to remember is how

tentative all of this really is.

You could wake up dead.


Or the woman you love

could decide you’re ugly.

Maybe she’ll finally give up

trying to ignore the way

you floss your teeth as you

watch television.  All I’m saying

is that there are no sure things here.


I mean, you’ll probably wake up alive,

and she’ll probably keep putting off

any actual decision about your looks.

Could be she’ll be glad your teeth

are so clean.  The morning could

be full of all the love and kindness

you need.  Just don’t go thinking

you deserve any of it.

– from philokalia, ©2002 by Scott Cairns

We ended our travels by sharing dinner with former CHUP organist Alec Chapman and his wife, Rachel. What a joy to reconnect – undeserved – but treasured!

Watch and Hope

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

I started thinking about the idea of a Sabbatical experience two years ago.  I began the work of planning it about 11 months ago.  I got really serious about six months ago, and designed our route, signed the contracts for our RV and began to book campsites.  One of the interesting features about our travel schedule is that it requires us to cross the Continental Divide at least two times. A continental divide is a line of demarcation indicating where water will flow across a continent – it’s a division where the precipitation that falls on one side of the line winds up in one ocean (say, the Pacific Ocean) or another (say, the Atlantic Ocean).  For most of the United States, that divide runs along the crest of the Rocky Mountains.

Which means that back in November when I was planning this route, I drew up a route that would have us ascending the mountains at least twice as we began and will end this sojourn in Salt Lake City, Utah.  I consulted all the best guides; I did my research, and the itinerary I drew up called for us to leave the eastern side of Rocky Mountain National Park on the morning of June 26 and drive up and over the crest of the divide and exit the western gate of the park. It made sense.  It was a lot of driving to get from the eastern gate of the Rocky Mountains to Dinosaur National Monument in Utah in one day, but it was only about 300 miles.  I could do it.

Except for the fact that it snowed like crazy in the Rocky Mountains the weekend prior to our arrival. We showed up at the east gate and were informed that the Trail Ridge Road – the only road connecting east and west in the park – was impassable due to a heavy snow accumulation.  This route, rising to 12,183 feet (3713 meters), is the highest continuous paved highway in the USA.

The Trail Ridge Road as it looked on days 1 and 2 of our Rocky Mountain Adventure…

Well, doesn’t that just beat all?  I’m in the tail end of a well-planned and meticulously organized travel plan, and the ONE ROAD I absolutely need is closed.  I stood in line at the Park Ranger’s desk and asked about the likelihood of the road opening up in time for me to make the rest of my journey.  Believe it or not, he seemed unimpressed with my meticulous planning.  Even after I explained that I was The Reverend Dave Carver and I had a tight program to keep, he pretty much said, “Well, let’s keep your eyes on the sign boards and hope.”

All of my plans for this trip had boiled down to whether the weather would clear and the crews would be able to dig out the road.  There was nothing I could do but to watch and hope.

As I did, I thought about a dear friend of mine who is engaged in the fight of her life with a deadly illness. She could tell me something about having plans interrupted by icy blasts and drifts that make progress seem unattainable.  I thought about another friend, whose dreams for the future seemed to disappear when her child died.  I remembered my own condition in the months leading up to this journey – some of the situations over which I have felt powerless to change and yet over which I worried a great deal.  As I considered the foolishness of my complaining about the weather, I was driven to prayer for those whose only options all day are to watch, and hope, and pray.

It was not the spiritual discipline I’d planned for myself this week of Sabbatical, but it was an important and holy work nonetheless.  We stayed in the area of the park that was accessible to us, and then less than 24 hours before I “needed it”, the road was indeed opened.  As silly as that may sound, it gave me hope for those situations that I named above.  I want to sing to my friends, “There is a way through!”  It may seem impassible or impossible now, but sometimes watching and hoping and praying lead us to a new experience of, and gratitude for, the journey.

Some of the drifts seemed to be fifteen feet high – on June 26th!!

Don’t get me wrong – I’m not equating my ability to drive a powerful vehicle on a mountain road with someone else’s battle with a deadly illness or the depths of grief.  I’m saying that my circumstances led me to a deeper awareness of the situations in which my friends have found themselves, and for that I’m most grateful.

I made it to the top of the Rockies this morning – it was hard to breathe, and the snow was deep.  As we wandered into a section of tundra atop the mountain, I recalled a poem that has meant a great deal to me in times where I wondered whether my plans were all shot to hell.  It’s called “Resurrection”, and it’s written by Mary Ann Bernard.  It reads as follows:

Long, long, long ago;
Way before this winter’s snow
First fell upon these weathered fields;
I used to sit and watch and feel
And dream of how the spring would be,
When through the winter’s stormy sea
She’d raise her green and growing head,
Her warmth would resurrect the dead.

Long before this winter’s snow
I dreamt of this day’s sunny glow
And thought somehow my pain would pass
With winter’s pain, and peace like grass
Would simply grow.  The pain’s not gone.
It’s still as cold and hard and long
As lonely pain has ever been,
It cuts so deep and far within.

Long before this winter’s snow
I ran from pain, looked high and low
For some fast way to get around
Its hurt and cold.  I’d have found,
If I had looked at what was there,
That things don’t follow fast or fair.
That life goes on, and times do change,
And grass does grow despite life’s pains.

Long before this winter’s snow
I thought that this day’s sunny glow,
The smiling children and growing things
And flowers bright were brought by spring.
Now, I know the sun does shine,
That children smile, and from the dark, cold, grime
A flower comes.  It groans, yet sings,
And through its pain, its peace begins.

Flowers of many types were already bursting through the tundra atop the mountains…

Most of you are reading this in the summertime.  I invite you to think about those of your friends who are snowed under today, and find a way to watch, hope, and pray for them.


I’m not the only one who felt good about making it to the top of the Continental Divide today!

Mule Deer are plentiful in the Rocky Mountain National Park.

We saw a number of moose today, including this cow and calf.

The pika is a small mammal about the size of a large chipmunk – it’s called “the farmer of the tundra” for its habit of storing seeds under rocks.

Adams Falls, on the west side of the park.

At Bear Lake, on the eastern side.

Wilson’s Warbler

Broad-tailed Hummingbird

After we had made it over the mountains and down the other side, there was still one threat to my plans: this five foot Prairie Rattlesnake. Now, to be fair, I had a 4,000 pound vehicle, and all he had was a really snazzy rattle and a little venom. We called it a draw and let each other pass…

Glimpses of the Black Hills and the Badlands, South Dakota

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

We spent several days exploring a fascinating part of the country in Western South Dakota.  The Black Hills are named because after miles and miles of prairie, these gentle slopes covered with dark pine arose to greet the settlers of the west.  Further to the east (and also in North Dakota), is an area called The Badlands.  The Lakota people were the first to call this place “mako sica” or “land bad.” Extreme temperatures, lack of water, and the exposed rugged terrain led to this name. French-Canadian fur trappers also called it “les mauvais terres pour traverse,” or “bad lands to travel through.” We found traveling in the RV that the land was good and the hills were gentle!  Enjoy these photos!

The Black Hills of South Dakota

A visit to Wind Cave – the bottom of the Black Hills!

Boxwork – a calcite formation that is fairly unique to Wind Cave – the calcite remained in place after the limestone eroded away.

Also in the Black Hills – the town of Deadwood, where Wild Bill Hickok met his maker whilst holding the “Dead Man’s Hand” of a pair of black aces and a pair of black 8’s. He looks pretty good here…

Deadwood was a hub for the “Gold Rush” in the Black Hills. Here I am checking out the accommodations.

I celebrated my birthday at Wall Drug, with ONE of these pieces of Cherry Pie.

The Black Hills was the first place we encountered feral donkeys on our trip. I’ve seen plenty of wild asses all over the world, however…

We couldn’t make a visit to the Black Hills without seeing four great leaders on Mt. Rushmore…

… or glimpsing the titanic monument to another at Crazy Horse Mountain. In the foreground is the model for the finished work; the background shows completion to date.

A panoramic shot of The Badlands. Can you imagine trying to get from here to there across THAT?

The Badlands at sunset.

A pair of Rocky Mountain Bighorn Sheep navigate the Badlands with ease.

Western Meadowlark

A Great Horned Owl greeted us at the dawn of a new day…

…and, being less than impressed, went about his business elsewhere.

I learned that it’s egg-laying season for Painted Turtles in this part of the world, and that they like to find gravelly areas to do so. That meant turning the RV around a few times to help some of these ladies make it to the other side of the road and accomplish their mission…

While leaving the Badlands, we were driving through northwest Nebraska when we got an email from our old friend Mark Campbell. Turns out that we were only a hundred miles away at the time, so we headed west in time to eat a (lake trout!) dinner with Mark and his wife Cindy. We spent three hours catching up, praying, and enjoying each other’s company. What a gift!

Is That What You Call It?

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

When I was a kid, I remember hearing people older than I talking about going to the church or the funeral home because they wanted to “pay their respects”.  Usually, that phrase was preceded or followed by something like, “It’s the least we can do.”

That phrase was always curious to me.  I knew what it meant to pay for a ticket to see a movie, or to pay the piper when I’d been caught misbehaving, but the idea of “respect” was so amorphous that the entire enterprise seemed so vague to me.  And why would it matter if it was your “least”, anyway?

I was, in many ways, a difficult child.

If you’ve known me long, you know that I’ve matured into a difficult adult.  Which is why I asked my wife to celebrate my 59thbirthday by accompanying me in a rental vehicle down some of the most mind-numbingly jarring dirt roads that Western South Dakota has to offer.  I was looking to pay my respects.

In recent years, I’ve had the opportunity to walk with many of our young people on Mission Service trips with the Seneca Nation of Indians in Western New York and the Eastern Band of Cherokee Indians in North Carolina.  As these pilgrimages have taken place, they’ve affected me deeply; in seeking to help the young people hear stories that are “other”, I find myself listening keenly and eagerly.  In North Carolina we learned of “the Trail of Tears”; in New York we heard from those whose land had been taken from them for the construction of the Kinzua Dam in my own state.  But for years, I’d heard snippets about what happened in Wounded Knee, South Dakota, and this Sabbatical gave me the chance to explore.

Here’s a short version: in the late 1800’s, it was clear that the Native Americans were getting put onto smaller and smaller pieces of less and less desirable land all across the nation.  A previous post discusses the events of Little Big Horn/Greasy Grass in 1876.  By the late 1880’s, most of the Lakota/Sioux people were crowded into a tiny percentage of the land that they’d been promised by earlier treaties.  Many of these people began following a prophet called Wokova, who taught a form of worship called “the Ghost Dance”.  This was an entirely peaceful dance, but it was tremendously unnerving to the whites. The local press, along with the military and settlers, began to talk about it as a dance that would lead to an uprising and a slaughter of the whites.

A map showing the land area granted for Native Americans to inhabit from 1492 – 2000.

As the US Army gets more and more nervous, the local Reservation Agent decides that one way to quell any thought of rebellion would be to arrest Chief Sitting Bull and exile him to the Dry Tortugas Islands off Florida. However, when his men go to do this, they wind up killing not only Sitting Bull, but his teenage sons and six other Sioux. Six of the Reservation Police are also killed.

A few days later, Chief Big Foot learns of Sitting Bull’s murder, and decides to turn himself in to the US Army at Fort Bennet.  Before they can get there, however, they are intercepted by the US Army.  At this point, Big Foot is likely dying of pneumonia and is carrying a white flag of truce.  The Seventh Cavalry surrounds his band, and orders them to encamp at the Pine Ridge Reservation.  On December 29, 1890, the cavalry troops, including mounted cannon, surround the Indian encampment.  At dawn that day, the Lakota men are ordered to surrender any weapons – and the camp is searched not only so that guns are taken, but knitting needles, awls, and more. Apparently, one Lakota – a deaf man – doesn’t want to give up the rifle he paid so much for – and in the struggle, a shot rings out.  When that happens, the worst occurs.

The US Army refers to what happened next as “The Battle of Wounded Knee”.  The Lakota call it “The Massacre of Big Foot”. The results are the same: once the big Hotchkiss cannons are employed, within ten minutes most of the Lakota men are killed.  Indians are fleeing every which way.  The US Cavalry hunts them down, chasing people as far as three miles – shooting men, women, children, and even infants at close range.

Maj. Gen. Nelson Miles, Commanding General of the Department of the Missouri, would say,

“Wholesale massacre occurred and I have never heard of a more brutal, cold-blooded massacre than that at Wounded Knee.  About two hundred women and children were killed and wounded; women with little children on their backs, and small children powder-burned by the men who killed them being so near as to burn the flesh and clothing with the powder of their guns, and nursing babies with five bullet holes through them…”

Mario Gonzales, a Lakota author and lawyer wrote in 1980,

“What I mean to say about the Laramie Treaty of 1868 is that it was a treaty for the cession of Lakota territory…What I say about the Wounded Knee Massacre of 1890 is that it was a crime against humanity for which the United States must be indicted.”

I couldn’t do anything about what happened in 1890.  But it was only two years before my grandfather was born.  It’s within the realm of my imagination.  I know, or have known, people who were alive in the 1890s. Whereas most of the “cowboys and Indians” play of my childhood was related to some distant imagining of an impossibly far-off past, 1890 does not seem so terribly remote.

I am saddened by what happened.  I’d change it if I could.  I wish that folks were not rounded up and sent to their death by relentless gunfire, misunderstood cultural beliefs, and simple arrogance.  But, as I’ve mentioned before, it happens.  It happens far too often.

The Wounded Knee Memorial sits in the Lakota Cemetery in Wounded Knee, South Dakota. It is on the Pine Ridge Indian Reservation.


So today I went to pay my respects.  It wasn’t the least I could do.  It was ALL I could do.  And as I sat and looked at yet another mass grave, I remembered the words of the prophets:


The prophecy that Habakkuk the prophet received.

How long, Lord, must I call for help,
    but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!”
    but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
    Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?
Destruction and violence are before me;
    there is strife, and conflict abounds.
Therefore the law is paralyzed,
    and justice never prevails.
The wicked hem in the righteous,
    so that justice is perverted.

I will stand at my watch
    and station myself on the ramparts;
I will look to see what he will say to me,
    and what answer I am to give to this complaint. (Habakkuk 1 and 2, excerpts)

Then I saw “a new heaven and a new earth,” for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bridebeautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” (Revelation 21)

So that’s how I spent my birthday, and my wife has loved me long enough and well enough to follow me into some of these places.  I paid my respects.  It was all I could do.

Except for telling you. If you didn’t know this story, you do now.

There’s a post-script here – and I may invite you to join me in taking a symbolic step of action. Nearly twenty US Soldiers received The Medal of Honor – the highest military award our nation can offer – for their actions on December 29, 1890.  Some of the Lakota people have begun a petition calling for those medals to be rescinded in an effort to not only recognize this atrocity for what it was, but to make sure that those who have received it since are recognized as true heroes.  You can learn more about this petition by clicking here. 

A Few Quick Photos

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

Our trip continues with great adventure and joy.  Here, without much reflection, are some photos of a few of the amazing sites we’ve been privileged to visit – here at Pompeys Pillar in Montana, the Theodore Roosevelt National Park in North Dakota, and Devils Tower in Wyoming.

Pompey’s Pillar along the Missouri River in Wyoming

Visiting Pompeys Pillar gave us the chance to learn a lot more about the Lewis and Clark expedition. William Clark visited this place with a portion of the Corps of Discovery, in 1806. This diorama features from left Clark’s slave, York, Clark, Sacajawea, and Sacajawea’s son Jean-Baptiste (aka “Pompey”). York and Sacajawea were regarded by Lewis and Clark as full participants in most aspects of the trip, and are recorded as having voted in communal decisions – really “radical” for that day and age.

Wait! There’s an imposter sneaking into the Corps of Discovery!

What is it about humans – particularly the male of the species – that makes us want to carve our names into every blessed thing we see? Here is Clark’s graffiti on Pompeys Pillar (which contains, in addition to other names, some hieroglyphs).

The view from atop Pompeys!

The Badlands of North Dakota as seen from a butte in Theodore Roosevelt National Park

We really enjoyed wandering through the trails at TRNP – especially near the Prairie Dog towns!

A spotted towhee literally buzzed us on the trail when I played the towhee call from my birding app. He was NOT happy with us being in his territory!

Devils Tower geologic formation that rises from the plain in Wyoming. It is a sacred site to many Native American groups. There are records of human activity here for at least 10,000 years.

Because of the sacred nature of this site, a Japanese artist included it among three in the world (the other two are the Vatican and a Buddhist shrine in India) that would be wrapped in the “ring of smoke” signifying human prayer and yearning for connection to the Divine.

No photos, but I saw a couple of Peregrine Falcons as well as their nesting spot near the top.


Disorderly Conduct

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

The Custer National Cemetery in Montana (a place where current and former servicemen are buried).

I suspect that I spend more time in cemeteries than most folks.  Some of that may be occupationally-related.  I’m sure that I go to more funerals than the average American. And if I helped teach you to drive, you will remember that some of the early lessons take place in the graveyard (not only does it give me a great  context to talk about the dangers of inattentive driving, it’s also a pretty safe bet that no pedestrians will get hurt!).  If you were in the Youth Group with me, you might have taken a field trip to the cemetery during conversations about death.

In some way, I like cemeteries.  They are quiet and peaceful places that can offer me the chance to think about what’s important, to re-align my priorities, and to focus on developing a sense of gratitude in life. They are often places of great beauty – there is often elaborate sculpture and, believe it or not, there are fine opportunities for bird-watching on these hallowed grounds.

And yet their quietness and their beauty belies the intrusiveness of death.  I feel that incongruence more in military cemeteries than anywhere else. Young men and women who have died prematurely, violently, and painfully might be startled to find their final resting places to be neat diagonal rows of crisp white markers on a perfectly manicured lawn. You must admit: it’s incongruous to say the least.

On June 18, I had the chance to visit a military cemetery that was stunning in all the ways that it was not neat, crisp, or manicured.  Sharon and I visited the Little Bighorn Battlefield National Monument in Montana.  Many Euro-Americans know this as the site of “Custer’s Last Stand”, while Native Americans remember this place as the Battle of Greasy Grass.  On a couple of miserably hot days in June of 1876, more than 250 solders, translators, and other people related to the army of the United States were killed by an assembly of several thousand Lakota and Cheyenne warriors.  This was, in many respects, emblematic of the armed conflict between Native Americans and their efforts to defend their way of life (particularly on the Great Plains) and European-Americans and the doctrine of “Manifest Destiny” that propelled them/us to take possession of the whole of North America.

To say that it was messy would be an understatement.  For starters, just eight years prior to this event, the US Government had signed a treaty with the Lakota, Cheyenne, and other tribes in Fort Laramie, Wyoming. In fact, Lt. Col. George Custer himself had said in 1869, “I will never harm the Cheyenne again.  I will never point my gun at a Cheyenne again.  I will never kill another Cheyenne.”

But not long after the Treaty of Fort Laramie was signed, someone discovered gold in the Black Hills, which by treaty belonged to the Indian Nations.  When the cry of “there’s GOLD in them thar hills” went out, thousands of eager and greedy settlers moved into the Indian land in direct violation of the treaty.  To be fair, for a time the US Army tried to keep them out, but, well, you’ve seen Wal-Mart on Black Friday.  It’s what we do.  The Native Americans got tired of these incursions, and so they began making raids on those who infringed on their domain.  There was inter-tribal conflict as well – the Crow, for instance, wanted to get the Cheyenne and the Arapaho off “their” land, and so Crow and Arikara Indians cooperated with Custer and the 7thCavalry.  And, at the end of the day, almost 300 white soldiers and their allies lay dead alongside of 60 – 100 Indian warriors.  Because the Indians were victorious in the battle, they had the opportunity to remove their dead and honor their bodies in traditional ways. Three days after the battle, US troops gained access to the battlefield and hastily buried Custer and his soldiers in shallow graves where they fell.  In 1890, the US Army erected 249 white headstone markers all across the battlefield to show where the soldiers had died, and, in 1999, the National Park Service began to install red granite markers at places where there were known Cheyenne and Lakota casualties.

Stones mark the places where Custer and many of his men were killed

The countryside is strewn with such markers indicating the intrusiveness and disorderliness of death.

My point is this: nobody’s hands were clean.  You can read volumes about what happened, but this is what struck me about the day that George Armstrong Custer clashed with Sitting Bull, Lame White Man, Red Feather, and other Indian warriors: the arrangement of the grave markers is a telling reminder of the fact that death and violence are not neat, never orderly, and by no means beautiful.  The monument along that ridge in Montana reminded me that too often our own conflicts turn deadly when we allow greed and pride to rule the day, when we can’t be trusted to keep our word, and when we want what the other person has more than we respect life.  It was sobering for me to walk amongst those hills and see another, and another, and another death – not manicured, not tidied up – but strewn across a landscape that will forever bear those scars.  I am grateful for the ways that the US Park Rangers helped me to understand some of what had happened in that June so many years ago, and I am also grateful for the way that the design of these memorials themselves helps me to remember not only the disorderly and violent ways that we so often choose, but also the opportunities that each of us has to seek peace and life.

A sculpture marking the memorial to the Plains Indians who fought here.

Wisdom from the past…may it guide our future.

We started the day in the Bighorn Canyon National Recreation Area, which straddles the border between Wyoming and Montana.

The Canyon is home to a refuge for wild mustangs!

After looking at the water so long, you KNOW we had to get up close and personal!

Crossing the Bighorn Mountain range at an elevation of close to 10,000 feet. Yep, it was cold!

It was a great day for spotting moose, though!

And we saw many, many Prairie Dog “Villages”!

We Were Wrong…Let’s Not Do THAT Again

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

While walking through the landscape of the Craters of the Moon National Monument in Idaho, a sign caught our eyes.  Neither Sharon nor I thought to take a photo of it, but in retrospect it was rather profound in its honesty and humility.  In describing a technique that attempted to control a potential problem with many of the local trees, the sign said simply something like, “This was a mistake.  Many acres of healthy trees were ruined by this mismanagement of our resources.  Park Managers now approach this situation differently and the environment is better for it.”

It struck us as a bit profound: most of the signs and monuments we see are erected in those places where we were right,  or were something great happened, or where some great victory was won.  Who likes to memorialize their mistakes?

I spent the day on June 17 exploring an entire landmark site commemorating one of the most shameful chapters in our nation’s history.  The Heart Mountain Interpretive Center near Powell, Wyoming, is a monument constructed on the location of one of ten “Relocation Centers” built by the United States Government to incarcerate its own citizens during World War II.

Posters like this went up in communities all across the west coast of the USA announcing the imprisonment of Japanese Americans.

A typical anti-Japanese cartoon and a photo of a US Citizen being arrested by the FBI for the crime of having the “wrong” ancestors.

On February 19, 1942 – about a month and a half after the Japanese attack on Pearl Harbor that propelled the US into World War II – President Franklin D. Roosevelt signed Executive Order # 9066.  This led to the forced removal of 120,000 Japanese Americans – at least two-thirds of whom were U.S. Citizens at the time – into what our government called “Relocation Centers” or “Camps”.  A bad political decision fueled by an agenda-driven media that played on public fears meant that United States Citizens were forcibly removed from their homes on the West Coast, deprived of their possessions and livelihoods, and forced to live in places like, well, Powell, Wyoming or Topaz, Utah or Jerome, Arkansas…the middle of nowhere.  They were crowded into uninsulated pine barracks covered with tar paper and forced into routines that disrupted their family systems and attempted to shame them for their heritage.

Residents of nearby Cody were reluctant to house what many termed “the yellow peril”.


This is not what we usually think of when we talk about “sending a child to camp.”


Internees at the camp were assigned rooms based on family size – there were 4, 6, or 8 people in a single room. Each room had a coal burning stove. Latrines were outside (in the Wyoming winters) and meals were taken in common mess halls.

A total of 14,025 people lived at the Heart Mountain site from 1942-1945.  That made this concentration camp the third-largest city in Wyoming.  The citizens who lived there were not allowed to vote in Wyoming – but they were permitted to vote by absentee ballot in the state from which they had been removed! They were deprived of their livelihood, and yet they were subject to the draft.  800 of these men and women served in the US military (some with distinction in all-Japanese units that were deployed in the European Theater); others were translators for the government that accused them of harboring sympathy for the enemy; and 85 protestors refused to comply with the draft.  Many of these were convicted and sent to  federal penitentiaries.  Some of the quotes I read indicated that these men thought “Go ahead – arrest me. I’m already in jail.”  One comment reminded me of Cassius Clay/Mohammed Ali’s stance on the war in Viet Nam: an internee at Heart Mountain said, “Why should I go over there and fight for democracy when I haven’t seen it at home?”

In the “Reflection Room” at the Heart Mountain Center there is a photo of the camp’s barracks in front of a barbed wire fence. Visitors are encouraged to write remembrances of their relatives or friends who lived at the camp and post them on replica ID Tags.

When the war ended and the camp closed, each internee received a “free” train ticket and a whopping $25 in cash.  Many of these folks recovered and built healthy lives; but others never recovered from this experience.  In 1988 (yes, more than four decades later), President Ronald Reagan, speaking on behalf of the US Government, apologized for the imprisonment of Japanese Americans and said that it had been a mistake.

One of the things that shocked me as I prepared for this sabbatical was the number of people who, when I mentioned that I hoped to visit Heart Mountain, said something like, “Oh, no, Dave.  We didn’t do anything like that.  That never happened in America.”

One of the Guard Towers that was manned by armed Military Police at all times.

And yet, my friends, it did. Fearmongering politicians emboldened those prone to racial prejudice and manipulated an often-compliant press into paving the way for this travesty of justice so that it seemed right and prudent to too many Americans.

President Roosevelt rightly declared that December 7, 1941 was a date that would “live in infamy”. The attack on Pearl Harbor was cold, calculated, and evil.  We cannot forget that.  And neither can we forget February 19, 1942 and the days that follow – or else we run the risk of repeating that shameful chapter in our history.  Let us, beloved, stand firm in our resolve to ensure that all Americans retain the rights to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Let us resolve to be our best selves in all spheres of life.


Sink or Swim? What does it mean to “conserve”?

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

A couple of weeks ago an elk calf wandered too close to and fell into a bubbling hot spring at the West Thumb Geyser Basin in Yellowstone National Park.  As the calf was bawling, there was some disagreement amongst the conservators of this national treasure.  A number of professionals, not surprisingly, thought that this was a “no-brainer” – the park personnel must step in and prevent the calf’s death.  However, others on the staff insisted that such was not in the mandate of the National Park Service.  They argued that the true expression of “conservation” in this sense was to do nothing: there was no human activity that forced the calf into the spring, and therefore no human activity should interfere with the calf’s ability to experience the consequences of its own action.

One of the many geothermal features (aka “hot springs”, “geysers”, mud pots”) for which Yellowstone is famous. The orange colors in this one reveal the presence of thermophilic organisms.

I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means to conserve, to be a conservative, to be a conservationist. I’ve come to understand that here in Yellowstone, “conservation” means, essentially, allowing the natural order to proceed with as little human impact as possible.  When the rangers were explaining this to us, Sharon and I both immediately remembered the old Star Trek series and the “Prime Directive” – that no matter what, the officers and crew of the Enterprise were not to interfere in the affairs of other planets/cultures/civilizations in such a way that the Federation of Planets was exerting influence or authority in another sphere.

Growing up, I thought that “conserve” meant to “keep something the same”, or “to protect something from change.”  However, that is far from the truth in the conservation efforts of the National Parks and Monuments we’ve visited this week. Rather, “conservation” in this context refers to the goal of protecting the natural environment from human caused change – while at the same time protecting the naturally-occurring changes that are taking place in these systems. I can’t tell you how many times we’ve passed a sign in front of a meadow or a young forest indicating that “this area was naturally reseeded after a fire in 1988” or something similar. We’ve seen hot springs that are alive with “thermophiles” – organisms that thrive in the intense heat or acidity of these geothermal features.  From time to time, an earthquake will rearrange the “plumbing” beneath a hot spring or a geyser, and thereby change the appearance and activity on the surface level.

At the Mammoth Hot Spring, the colored deposits reveal the presence of life; the white or gray indicate areas where the course of the water flow has shifted, resulting in the death of those bacteria which had once been there.

Another view of the mineral and bacterial structures that surround the Mammoth Hot Springs at the park.

The long and the short of it is this: I have had the privilege of spending three days in mid-June, 2019 at the Yellowstone National Park.  If you came here ten years ago, you would have seen a different place. If you get to come in six months, there’s a good chance that something will be significantly different about the forest, the animal populations, the geothermal sites, or more.  Because they are being conserved in such a way that allows them to grow, change, and adapt.

We were at Yellowstone, for crying out loud! Of course we saw Old Faithful (twice, in fact!).

Look: I’m not a biologist, a geologist, or a ranger.  I’m a pastor and a theologian.  But I recognize this as something that resonates with an interdisciplinary truth: our job as human beings is not to stake out some particular ground and seek to defend it at all costs – as if some change might come and ruin the world as we know it.  Rather, we are called to live in such a way so as to recognize that change is inevitable. I know it in my knees, which would have much preferred to make some of these hikes fifteen or thirty years ago. And yet my heart might have required this journey at this time.  Just as those charged with conserving the environment here work hard every day to ensure that forests and geysers are free to adapt to their own shifting environment, so we too must realize that each day presents us with new opportunities for growth.  While I may be free to say, “I’ll never do such-and-such”, it’s surely not wise.  Nor is that a necessarily conservative mindset.  A healthier outlook might be, “Wow, I never thought of that before.  I’ll have to sit with that for a while.”

I’m grateful for the opportunities I’ve had to pause, reflect, grow, and change.  This sabbatical offers more opportunity to do that. My prayer is that you, dear reader, might be open to new ideas, new experiences, and new adventures in the day that lies in front of you!

A mother fox nurses her kits.

A coyote on the prowl – while we were eating our lunch!

This adult Bison is keeping an eye on us…

…while the calves (aka “red dogs”) play nearby!

Three juvenile badgers venture out of their den…

Bighorn Sheep

A mature elk grazing nearby.

A young grizzly bear wandered within about 10 feet of our vehicle!

One of the best, and unexpected, joys of using an RV to explore this part of the world is that we have everything with us all the time. Which means, why bother eating in a campground when you can pull off the side of the road and enjoy a vista filled with bison or elk? On the menu last night: rice pilaf with mixed vegetables served with fresh-caught lake trout fried in butter with onion and lime. You could do worse…

(postscript – some of my readers will be glad to know that at the end of the day, the National Park Staff chose to rescue the calf and it is, presumably, wandering happily with the herd…unless it’s wandered too close to the wolf pack – but that’s another story.)

There is a 99.9% chance that this is NOT the elk calf that fell into the hot spring. But he’s having a good day nonetheless!

Ya Never Know!

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

One of my great hopes when I came out to this part of the country was that I’d be able to do a little fishing, especially for some of the wild trout that fill these lakes and streams. One of my great fears was that, while I know a thing or two about fishing EAST of the Rockies, I’ve never tried fresh water angling west of the Mississippi.  My hopes and my fears were both amplified when my friend Gabe presented me with a lovely rod to take with me on this trip – “Good luck, buddy!”, he said.

Well, I thought I’d need more than luck.  Who wants to waste a day in the Grand Tetons fishing with the wrong gear in the wrong spot? This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity!  So I decided that I better learn from someone smarter than I am.  Fortunately, there are a number of those folks around at any given moment.  I hired “Captain Phil” to take me on a two hour fishing excursion on Jackson Lake.  Turns out that the price was the same for one angler as for two, so Sharon Carver bought herself a fishing license!?!  Ya never know.

Captain Phil’s boat is clean and well-appointed; it’s comfortable; it seems like a great retirement gig for this kind man from California.  It’s just that, well, we did waaaaay more “fishing” than “catching”. Oh, it was a pleasant enough couple of hours, but I had hoped for more.  Near the end of our trolling, we ended up each reeling in a nice-sized lake trout.  It was a great tour and a delightful couple of hours, but I didn’t really feel as though I’d “fished”.

Look who’s into a Lake Trout!

She was happy to reel it in, but she wasn’t gonna hold it just so YOU could see…

Crusing with Captain Phil. You’ll understand when I said it didn’t really feel like “fishing”…

Luckily, I ran into a very helpful clerk at a visitor’s center who told me about a great spot – just below the dam on Jackson Lake.  He suggested where I should stand, and what I might throw.  I had happened to bring a small tackle box with me, and I had four suitable lures.  “Great!”  I thought. “Now let’s fish!”

Could this be the “honey hole”?

I got to the spot and I saw a few fellas with stringers that were full.  That boded well.  On my first cast, I lost what I thought was my best lure.  Sigh.  A couple of casts later, I was very excited to get a hit on my line, but disappointed when I discovered that I’d foul-hooked a fish whose name I forget, but it’s related to a carp or a sucker – in other words, not a “keeper.”  I managed to land a small rainbow trout, but also managed to lose two more lures – my line was bad.  I switched reels (yeah, I brought two on vacation – don’t judge me!) and then things turned around.  Using my last spinner – a white Rooster Tail, I brought in four very nice lake trout.  It was the best trout fishing day I’d ever had (not counting steelhead)!  Ya never know!

Oh, I think “YES!” Gabe will tell you “it’s all in the equipment…”

Dinner! And Lunch! And Dinner again!!

There was a young man who saw me catching these fish and he crept closer and closer to me.  He asked what I was using.  He brought his tackle box to me and asked me to help him choose his lure.  Still, I was reeling them in and he was cursing quietly and politely.  Finally, I had accomplished something in two hours that I rarely accomplish: I caught more fish than the Carvers could eat.  Ya never know!  It was time to pack it in and head for the campsite (those fish weren’t gonna clean themselves!).  I cut my line, gave the Rooster Tail to the young man next to me, and rejoined my bride.

It seems to me that fishing, and life, are better when we share what we have and what we know.  Gabe didn’t need to give me a fishing rod – but he did.  The clerk didn’t have to tell me where he fishes and what he uses, but he did – and it made my day so much better!  My fishing companion was surprised when I gave him my lure – but really, I’d been given so much already it seemed like literally the least I could do.  And maybe he’ll do the same some day.

Don’t worry, I didn’t spend my whole time in the Grand Teton National Park fishing.  We covered a good bit of the park in our RV and saw some amazing wildlife.  We took an exhilarating hike around the shore of Jenny Lake.  We saw a grizzly with her cubs, some elk and antelope, and a host of other beautiful sights.

Overlooking Jenny Lake

An Elk shared the trail with us for a bit…

Hidden Falls at Jenny Lake

This little Marmot didn’t know what to do about us sharing his rock!

My hope is that you’ll find some unexpected gifts – either received, or to share – in this day, and that something small might turn out to be something big.  Because…ya never know.

A White-Crowned Sparrow on our trail.

PS: I did get up early this morning and drive to a tackle shop.  I might have bought a few more lures.  I might have caught and released four very nice lake trout because our freezer is full. Ya never know.

This guy and three of his friends made it back into the water thanks to my full freezer this morning!

Let’s Roll! Another Sabbatical Update…

One of the highest privileges I’ve received is that of serving as Pastor for the community of The First U.P. Church of Crafton Heights for the past 26 years.  In 2010, this group granted me a four-month Sabbatical from my ministry for a time of recharging and renewal.  In 2019, they extended that offer again – so I’ve got three months to wander, wonder, and join in life in a  different way.  These entries will help to describe that experience – the sermons return in September.

The first leg of this journey involves spending time with my bride of 37 years in a part of the country we’ve never been before – the great western part of the USA including the states of Utah, Idaho, Wyoming, Montana, North and South Dakota, and Colorado (I think!).  Our home away from home is a 19 foot motor home that suits us just fine.  I had thought about bringing dashboard Jesus (CHUP folks will understand) along with me, but when I considered the many people who might be using our vehicles while we’re away, I thought it best to leave him on the job in Pittsburgh and I just bought the extra insurance on the RV.

Now THAT’s what I’m talking about – the open road (and 19 feet of all the necessities for living!).

Our first campsite at Antelope Island.

After getting acclimated for a day in Salt Lake City, Utah, we collected our vehicle and headed north.  First stop was Antelope Island State Park, located right in Utah’s Great Salt Lake.  WHAT A BLAST we had!  We rode some “e-bikes” (you look like you’re pedaling, but there’s an electric motor that does all the hard work) and took a “sunset tour” of part of the Island.  Between the things we saw there and the things that presented themselves at our doorstep at the campground, we were seriously wowed!

The view from our first campsite…

We were eating our dinner and this wily coyote wandered by in search of his own! No roadrunners around, though!

All together now… “Oh give me a home where the buffalo (technically American Bison, but that won’t rhyme…) roam…

… and the (mule) deer…

…and the (pronghorn) antelope play…

…and the skies are not cloudy all day!” (but the mosquitos are fierce, so you’d better dress accordingly!

Sharon, the well-dressed cyclist, spends a little time up close and personal with this bruiser…

One more, because they are so amazing…

Sunset over the Great Salt Lake – a great ending to a fantastic day!

From there we drove a few hours into Idaho (the “Gem State”, in case you were wondering) and stopped at Shoshone Falls in the Snake River Canyon.  We had a delightful picnic lunch and celebrated the beauty of God’s creation.  After lunch we drove a bit more and arrived at The Craters of the Moon National Monument near lovely Arco, Idaho.  This landscape bears the scars of volcanic eruptions as recent as 2,000 years ago – and it truly looks other-worldly.  We clambered over rocks, up steeper hills than folks in our condition should attempt, and in general thought that we were in another place altogether…

The Snake River Canyon near Shoshone, Idaho

Shoshone Falls, Idaho

The eerie landscape of the Craters of the Moon National Monument

We had the chance to wander into a “lava tube” – a cave formed by the molten lava thousands of years ago…

…even more importantly, we found a way OUT of the Lava Tube!

In the foreground, “young” volcanic rock; in the middle are hills that are formed by the same rock, but older and therefore beginning to sport some vegetation; and in the background the snow-capped Rocky Mountains

And yes, I found a few birds out here. I added five to my “life list” today, including this male Mountain Bluebird.

…which, when you think of it, is the point of Sabbatical, isn’t it?  To be somewhere else, doing something else, as we continue the never-ending journey of becoming someone we have not yet been.  I am truly grateful for the ways that this trip has afforded me time with my wife and in God’s sanctuary of creation.  Odds are, as you read this, you are NOT on Sabbatical.  My hope for you is that you might be struck by a moment of awe, wonder, or joy this day and think, “I did NOT know that yesterday… I’m growing.  And that’s good.”  Joy to you!